Got an email back from SFSU that I’m good to go so as soon as registration come I’m applying and and UC: San Diego :) This week isn’t as stressful as last week, but as always there’s something to do. I The only time I don’t like being busy is on the weekend ..well the only thing I wanna do is be with the Wolfpack and my girlfriend. But chyah, my first calculus test is tomorrow I’m hoping for an A so let’s get this crap over with. I’m ready!
This whole week Monday through Friday has been really busy but there’s always time to make time. Finally, after almost two long weeks I got to see my friends and girlfriend. I missed her like a crazy and finally when I saw her she came to me and her eyes were red. I had never been so worried in my life about someone. There are times when there aren’t really any words of comfort to say, but a hug says everything you couldn’t put into words. I comforted her and I realized how much I love and care for her, she’s my baby. I’d do anything for her and to make and see her smile. After comforting her and giving her some time on her own she came back to me and we were great as usual just holding her hand, kissing her cheek, making her laugh, whispering or singing in her ear, etc. Just hanging out and going for a late night walk was great, unforgettable. I love when we cuddle up on the couch, I could fall asleep in her arms or vice versa lol. Whenever I have to go I always pull her close, cup her face in my hands, and kiss her slowly over and over till I have to go. It will be our first month tomorrow ^__^ great progress. Gotta a date to plan this week.
I feel like I’ve been constantly moving at 100 MPH. Take home test, two online quizes, more hw!! The fuuh where’d all this hw come from? I mean I stay on top of all my work ..zayuuum ~ can a I get a futha mucking break! But anywhozees, I got a job interview tomorrow for Yo Mama’s (frozen yogurt) pretty stoked so woohoo! Pops comes back from Hawaii tonight, but ugghhhhh ~ this might be another week were I can’t hangout with my girlfriend. AGSGSHCWEAHDF! I am gonna go do all of my work now.
Always, always, always.. babe, you always fall asleep on the phone and that’s okay. In fact, it’s pretty cute, but before you fall asleep or any other time I love hearing the sound of your voice. Hm ~ if you’re reading this I just wanna say “hi” or “lagi ka nasa isip at puso ko” haha skills yeah. It’s always nice talking with you. Ughh ~ I can’t wait to see you already! It might be another week before you see me well physically Skype doesn’t count, but its sall good. I hear you, and the fam well maybe your little brother and sister miss me :) haha I miss you guise too >o
Yeah, blah its a laame Monday, anyway my last class was cancelled or that was what I convinced myself so I went home early and I ate then went to bed. EXHAUSTED.. so I’m dreaming and dreaming and this is a pretty good dream and yanno they say if you want to remember your dreams don’t get right up when you wake (well if you’re house is on fire and you dreamt the lotteries winner number ..eff that dream or die rich, jk value your life its worth a lot) so I’m just laying down but I’m awake and I’m thinking about my dream and I start to remember. So its my girlfriend and I and as usually we’re having another game/date night playing uno or monopoly with friends and everyone disperses into different corners of the room to “talk” so we’re “talking” and I tell her something I’ve been really wanting to tell her but kinda hesitant on but I can wait the 5 letter word plus you ( olive you) lol and sure enough she says it back. Woow ~ what a nice dream, don’t get me wrong followers and think “oh my guy ~ you just started dating this girl.. ayy nako! You should wait like a couple months to say it, chillax brah.” HOLUP HOLUP HOLUP, WOAH DAYUR ..BOING! lol its okay to love a person hey some people click better than others and why should someone have to conform to societies rule that is highly manipulated by popular opinion or Hollywood’s glamorized illusion of love. I don’t have to wait, neither should anyone else if you feel it say it but if you’re afraid show it, actions speaker loud than words. Haha well yeah mkay buyy
It’s always every Friday and Saturday. We text all day and talk at night and I don’t know how buy the later it gets the sound of my voice always puts her to sleep and she’ll doze off on me =] This weekend was by far pivotal, because I’m not trying to brag or boast cause I don’t think many guys still do this but if so *high-5 I asked for my girlfriend’s dad permission if could date her, brought for the food well a dessert for the family, and a rose for her grandma (inai). Whenever I leave it always super late cause I just don’t want to leave so I never say goodbye just see ya later. Hugs and kisses as we part make me miss her already and I haven’t even left so I just have to squeeze her a little tighter and kiss her deeply with tons of passion like as if we were in a romantic movie. And as always we talk in the morning ever so often because I know my grizzly bear likes to sleep in, but this time we talked about almost everything in our lives or how our day is going so far and I told her how I felt about her. Before I say what happened, I’d always tell her one day I’m gonna tell her something so sweet and heartfelt and that you’ll cry but she’d laugh and say naaah ~ ahah. So after I told her what was in my heart, she started crying.. awwhh tears of joy. “When you know, you know.”
Another great day with my girlfriend :) literally spent the whooole day with her.. and her brothers, sisters, and dad. Aghh! Her dad and I are becoming cooler and more passed an awkward stage. After helping her clean all day and the frequent breaks of playing monopoly, catching fireflies, making her laugh or smile like Elmo, it was a really fun day. She was pretty tired after today so we just laid next to each other holding hands talking to each other or telling stories. I could relive that moment with her over and over. Someday I’ll get to fully cuddle with my grizzly bear and we’ll end up falling asleep together. Listening to her heatbeat was so amazing. She makes me feel like the luckiest guy ever!
So every time I go to see my mahal her little brother and sister always want to play so I play with them. They’re always so nice and cute, but to her that’s just a phase and I’ll see how they really are. Lol naaaah ~ they love me. In fact, one day she told me her baby brother was with her and they were talking and she said something about me to him and he says “I LOVE KWAN!!” awwh haha that made my day.
So back on the grind again getting my nerd on for another semester I had a couple of mishaps during the day. I got up early and commuted to school by bus yanno save the earth ..chafeel? Yeah as I walked through the city in downtown I walked into class and its packed like! Blah blah blah introductions and talks about nothing. He calls roll and I didn’t hear my name so he suggested I should go to the enrollment office. I don’t let it bother so I go to my second class and it happened again, okay things are getting a little suspiciouso. Turns out all 5 of my classes had been dropped then they told me to go to the financial aid office. Had like 50 kajillion people ahead of me in line ugggh ~ FINALLY I get called. They help me and woo I’m back then I reapply for class but they weren’t there. And I’ll stop here basically it was a looong day, but I got everything back.
I don’t date in quantity, but quality. The type of person you are, your character shows me who you really are and with flaws and imperfections aside I don’t have any reason to prejudge you. Before, I thought my high school love was all I ever wanted, but I realized she wasn’t for different reasons and I’m not trying to bash her or anything. However, with Mary, everything is different I don’t need to guess, check our horoscopes, worry about the past, or whatever may be, because when your intentions are good and your heart is in the right place you just know. One day at a time so we can spend a slow forever.
I hadn’t thought about it for awhile, nor felt it either till now. I spend ounces of time trying to measure up how much you fill my mind. I think about what I want to tell you so I pretend and play it over in my mind again and again. When the time actually comes I hope words aren’t enough and nothing comes to mind so that I can kiss you letting you feel the words I couldn’t find to say to you. I love how you put me to sleep, not like an unbearable boring type sleep, but more like you’re my favorite lullaby you put my mind to ease and I smile type sleep. I’m find myself constantly falling for you like as if the things that draw me into your universe holds me and keeps me grounded like gravity. I hadn’t thought about this thing or feeling for awhile cause I didn’t have a reason to, but now I guess I do and it’s nice.
So today I went to the store to buy groceries since my brothers have had the house to ourselves. While my parentals enjoy their lavish trip all they sent was $50 so I just went in Walmart and shopped till the last dollar. Cereal, snacks, food, more food, water, juice, leggo my eggo waffles (thug life), and other necessary items for living like a BAAAUSSS. And guess what the total price came up to ..$49.65 HOLUP HOLUP HOLUP still got some change left :D well imma make it rain with what’s left in my piggy bank lol
I would like to learn how to play the guzheng (zither) or the erhu. I love how they sound especially whenever I’m watching some foreign movie and it goes perfectly with the tone of the scene.
I like the fact that everyday I’m slowly moving closer to accomplishing my goals and achieving my dream job even if it’ll take a couple of years. This slow pace is well worth it and I know foshure when I become an interpreter I’ll look back and just think about everything I’ve been through to get to that point. So the confusing days, stressful times, not knowing what to expect will make me push me further.
Hey, the tortoise won the race so no rush.
I will never get why my parents think having a job is more important than getting my college education. They swear I’m soo lazy.. the heck?! I have a 3.667 GPA and I never get in trouble, but if I go hangout one day I’m out of control or some kind of party animal -___- nowadays friends like to hangout at other friends houses even though they could do the same thing at home, but being with your friends and the just getting away is so much better. And okay I can kind of see the lazy part being that I DO NOT want to work during school, but if my GPA is that high doesn’t that show how hard I’m working my butt off. Overall, here’s my philosophy: we’re only allowed to be young until a certain period of our lives maybe shorter for some and literally we’re going to have to work most of our lives. So think about it why not work hard in school and get a job where you don’t have to work the majority of your life or get a job you’ll love to go to everyday. Sheesh ~